अब कहाँ रस्म घर लुटाने की !

Now I am thinking that why I have loved this film so much?? there is nothing special about the movie.Your average actors...hero...heroines. Thousand time done it -type story...boy loves girl since childhood.When they grow up they meet and after a brief physical encounter he suspects her..that she is a slut..a whore etc. But after taking litres of Vodka when he realizes that she is the girl for him it becomes too late! uhhh..wats new there??
When I have read Devdas of Sharatchandra in my school days then ...I still remember that I have almost shed tears at the end of the story-'There should be someone near you at the time of death to shed few drops of tears!' How pathetic that end was and my heart was full of grief!sorrow!pain! but I could't identify myself with Devdas ! Its reverse in the case of Dev-D. I can identify easily--oh! Its not Abhay Deol ..its me! with secret desire to self destruction. Indeed this movie Dev-D has captured the contemporary idiom successfully!

The other film which has overwhelmed me 2-3 years ago was "Gangster". Usually I purchase CDs of classics only but I made Gangster an exception.It is having pride of place with the classics of Gurudatt in my CD album! Two things are common in both the movies-Liquor and self destructive mode of protagonist! Why there is so much lure of both the things? We know that it is not right for us even then we go to fetch the Bottle! Coke with Vodka! May be broken heart with liquor makes a deadly combination which not only loosers but your so-called winners also like-coz we all are loosers in one way or another! no matter how much success we got or how much money we collected or whether somebody dumped us or we have collected a trophy wife!Ultimately all the paths leads towards grave! Ending the blog in the words of Faiz-
अब कहाँ रस्म घर लुटाने की
बर्कतें थी शराबख़ाने की !
कौन है जिससे गुफ़्तुगु कीजे
जान देने की दिल लगाने की !
बात छेड़ी तो उठ गई महफ़िल
उनसे जो बात थी बताने की !
साज़ उठाया तो थम गया ग़म-ए-दिल
रह गई आरज़ू सुनाने की !
चाँद फिर आज भी नहीं निकला
कितनी हसरत थी उनके आने की !

कुछ न होगा तो तजुर्बा होगा!

बचपन में एक किताब ने बहुत प्रभावित किया था- नाम था "हमारे वैज्ञानिक" । आज तक उस पुस्तक की याद है...पुरानी किताबो की भीड़ में पता नहीं कहाँ खो गयी...लेकिन ज़िन्दगी में वैज्ञानिक बनने की तमन्ना पैदा कर गयी..यह अलग बात है की बन कुछ नहीं पाया...उन स्कूली दिनों में अपने को वैज्ञानिक से कम नहीं समझते थे । वोह तमन्ना तो अधूरी रह गयी..दूसरी बहुत सी तम्मनाओं के साथ, लेकिन एक चीज़ है जो हर वैज्ञानिक की जड़ में होती है और वो है..प्रयोग करने की आदत...और प्रयोग अपन ने बहुत किये..यहाँ तक की ज़िन्दगी एक प्रयोग बन के रह गयी। जो नहीं बनना था वो बन गए...और जो बनना था वो पीछे ही छूट गया...इस पोस्ट का शीर्षक देते वक्त ग़ालिब का यह शेर याद आ गया की...कुछ न होगा तो तजुर्बा होगा!
उदारीकरण ने और कुछ किया हो या न किया हो..अपने जैसे आदमी को जिंदा रहने का ज़रिया दे दिया..नहीं तोह आज यह सोच के ही दम निकलता है की हिंदुस्तान की जुगाड़ कल्चर में फिट होने में अपने को बहुत प्रॉब्लम आती और शायद एक जॉब के भी लाले पड़ जाते ।

ज्यादा दिमाग में आज कुछ आ नहीं रहा है..ग़ालिब के शब्दों को उधार लेकर..अपनी दफन हुई बहुत सी तमन्नाओं में से एक को पेश करके ब्लॉग ख़त्म करता हूँ...


रहिये अब ऐसी जगह, चलकर जहाँ कोई न हो
हम सुख़न कोई न हो और हम्ज़बाँ कोई न हो
बे दर\-ओ\-दीवार स एक घर बनाया चाहिये
कोई हमसाया न हो और पासबाँ कोई न हो
पड़िये गर बीमार तो कोई न हो तीमारदार
और अगर मर जायें तो, नोहाख़्वाँ कोई न हो!

इस कुत्ते समय में ...!

So, finally courtesy net I have got some space to write and this first post is going to set the future tone of the blog. Its going to be entirely individualistic.....or in other words its Of Prashank, By Prashank and for Prashank! In hindi u can say Swanta Sukhai(for our happiness only). So there is no need for any one to read it. I have now got something where I can say -Hey all you fuckers can go to hell! i do not care about you!

Society start conditioning our mind soooo very much that there comes a point when your sanity start sucking your blood! thats why now-a-days you will find lots of incidents of violence where the perpetrators of the crime did not have the apparent reason to do it. These incidents happens more frequently in highly civilised society like U.S.
Obviously there is so much pressure on the mind in civilised society that people start boiling inside and after certain limit...only insanity prevails!
So॥folks! in future this blog i guess will provide me the opportunity to express
my self in this space...and it will work for me like a personal diary! if you want to read it....well i do not have problem with it...but it would not be the logical...rational or coherent way of writing...coz..life is not like that! and at least there should be one place where we should forget about our masks! where..we should forget about pretending! where we should forget about..being somebody which we are not! where we should forget about being logical..being rational.... should forget about the others and should be happy to see our ugly face...coz that face would be the real one...all other faces are ...masks..only!
In next few posts i will try to analyze myself and the problems i have faced with this bitchiness of the people .....wearing the masks when there is no need...people become so habitual about this that they can even befool themselves about that...they continuously star deceiving others and in the end there remains nobody but "self" to deceive! For our extroverts kind of people this problem is very much..its like a writer who can write beautiful language..very beautiful...with all kind of figure of speeches...then what happens he start ignoring..the real content..that what he is writing! and thats ...where his downfall begins...with extroverts...there is the same problem..they become so much confident about fooling others that..ultimately...they befool themselves ..coz in this world even a child is not that much ignorant that he can be deceived again and again by the same tricks..and by the same fools! I am now raising my hands against all those bastards...who made this life..a world to live outside only! All these bastards...should get severest of the punishment. They made this world a hell for a genuine person! यह हाथ अस्वीकृति में उठा है उन लोगों से जो विन्सेंट वन गोग के हत्यारे हैं...जो हत्यारे है...उन सभी..के जो नाटक करना नहीं जानते...आज जब मैं अपनी ज़िन्दगी को भी देखता हूँ तो लगता है की जादातर समय मैं वो करता रहा जो दूसरों को सही लगता था और मुझे गलत...आज मैं जब..अपना..गुबार निकालने बैठा हूँ..तो उन सभी हमारे पूर्वजो..को लानत भेजता हूँ..जिन्होंने हमें एक ऐसा कुत्ता समय जीने के लिए दिया जहाँ आदमी को आदमी खाने के अलावा और कुछ नहीं सूझता॥! आज के लिए बस इतना ही! कल हम फिर दुनिया को गाली देंगे..क्योंकि अपने को सही साबित करने का एक सबसे अच्छा तरीका दूसरों को गलत साबित करना ही है...है न?